Stuck in the memory..

I am stuck in the memory..

I am dragged to this moment by the passing of years; while my heart still trapped in the memory..day goes by..Autumn goes, Spring Comes..Summer goes and Winter comes in..People changes and they move on..and ME? Stuck in the memory..

Thinking of you makes me feel like the same old way..My heart still beats in the feeling of this..Pounding hard as if they will burst anytime..How could i hold my heart beat while i couldn't hold even my breath for a while..and I get lost in the moment every time i think of you..

With all these memories they keep haunting in my dreams. You were so real and i couldn't make out where i am. Couldn't make which is past and which is present. Everything was the same as they were. You whispered in my ear and giggle little. You were so real...and I get lost in the moment again..

I am stuck in the memory of you √ ♀ ♡ ♂

Fighting For Memory; Fighting Memory.

Fighting For Memory; Fighting Memory.

Fighting And Struggling For Memory Since I Was A Boy.
I Have To Stay Up All Night Fighting For Memory
Struggling To Gain Something For My Memory.
Sometimes I Had To Dip My Legs In Cold Water In Freezing Nights.
I Was Very Eager To Grow Older Just To Skip Those Fighting For Memory.
I Hated Fighting For Memory..But Loved Memories, Because That Was The Only Way To Get Promoted To The Next Grade.

Yeah! Things Really Have Changed A Lot As I Grew Older.
But Thing Are No Better Than Those Days.
In Fact, The Fight Seems Much Harder.
I Used To Fight For Memory But Now I Am Fighting My Memories Every Single Day.
They Were Once A Sweet Memory, But Even Good Memory Can Really Get More Hurting,
And Are Harder To Fight Them.
There Are Moments When I Wish If There Were Pills To Clear All My Memories And Wake Up In The Morning, Remember Nothing About The Past And Start All Over Again Afresh.

No Matter How Many Years Had Passed, They Are Still Haunting Me Every Night.
I Couldn't Sleep In The Night. They Are So Damn Hurting.
It Struck Me Down And Makes Me Feel Like I Am So Alone.
So Alone Without..Yet So Hurting With In..
Remembering The Smiles We Had Makes Me Want To Cry..
Day After Day They Are Getting Worse, And The Night Seems Getting Longer And Longer..

Things Are Real Confusing Sometimes. But This Is Always Crystal Clear To Me. I Am Glad I Met You, And Have Not Regret To Have Let My Heart Fall In Love With You And Will Never Be.

(Off The Record, I Still Miss You Every Time I Remember Your Name. But Tell No One.. <3)

A Magician "HEART"

My Heart Play Tricks On Me..

Yeah With Its Magic Stick; It Tricks Me All The Time.

Like A Magician, Performs Illusion On Me.

Make Me See Sprinkles In The Sky..

Like A Mirage In The Desert It Fools Me.

It Makes Me Keep Chasing For It Till I Completely Faint With Weary Hope..

But There Is No Reaching..When I Get There They Are Just Like A Rainbow In The Air..

They Are Gone Before I Can Feel..Gone In The Breeze..

The Faster I Ran, The Further They Are Gone..

It Makes Me Feel Like A Fool, And Left Me With No Reputation.

In The End It Only Make Me Realize They Are Just A Fantasy..

Yeah, My Heart Tricks Me Again..Oh! I Wish They Are Real This Time..

A Magician "HEART" With A Creepy Magic Wand.

....Happy Beginning.......Happy Ending.....

....Happy Beginning....

Love me while you are young and i will love you through your ages; when no one loves you..

Kiss me while your lips are still soft and shining; i will still kiss your dry and wrinkled lips...

Hold me now and i will still be the one to hold your wrinkled hand..

Walk with me now and i will never let you walk alone through this life's lonely roads..

If you ever had to leave me somehow...Baby, would you please turn around and look back just once..

Just to find me standing right there...where we say our last goodbye...

I will always be there if you ever need me...and looking for me..

Baby, all i need now is your love..love...love...And if you do..forever will be too short... even then, you will still be the one I love.

...Happy Ending.....

Remembering you..

When i have plenty i have nothing..but when i have little i have a lot 'cause every single bit of them make counts to me..

Even a little bit remains of you makes me feel like having everything i need..

They said, 'she has got a new boyfriend'

They said, 'she has got a new boyfriend' but why can't he fall in love again..his heart feels like fresh wounds and broken. And he said to himself, 'i knew it, my heart could be broken any of these days'; but he still love her. Like the weather in August, His smile in the face fades away and faint with the memory of his Love and only love, just like the beautiful morning sunshine is gloomed away by the evening rain. Then i said, "Will you ever get over this? She told you, it's over." But he could not believe it. 'Cause he loves her so much that make him believes she still loves him in her heart.

This and that; now and then: all that make the difference.

This and that; now and then: all that make the difference.

Sometime I'm loved; the other time I'm pushed 'round

I've been cheated; Been mistreated.

Someone loves the silliest thing I said; Some other can't feel even the most poetic songs from the deepest of my heart.

Those days she loved the most stupid things from you. But now she hates the most romantic songs from the bottom of your heart..

Those days he hates your sweet songs; The next time he loves the stupidest things you said to him..

I Guess, Might be that's why God made Different Seasons, Day and Night, Different People..But I admit that I love a particular time, a particular season.

That make me stay up all night...

I Remember; It Was Your Day Off That Day..And I Was Then Out Station On Duty. I Got Many Crowd To Attend That Day. You Also Knew I Will Be Very Busy But Still I Will Miss You That Day..Do You Still Remember How Much Happy I Was To Read All You Text All Day.. You Said You Will Still Text Me If I Didn't Reply You 'Cause You Knew I Was Busy..You Were Texting Me Every Moment Telling Me Stupid Things..You Text Me About What You Just Did And What You Are Upto After Every Move You Made..You Text Me About Your Laundry..You Text Me When You Do The Dishes.., I Don’t Try To Remind You All These Things..But I Just Want You To Know I Miss Those Days And Remembering That Day Made Me Stay Up All Night Last Night..I Have Almost Forget Your Faces But I Still Couldn't Get Over This..They Come Over And Over In My Head..I Used To Loved Being Having Dreams...But They Just Make It Harder To Come Around..All I Want To Know Is You Are Ok..Don't Worry About Me..I Will Be Ok Again Someday..I Just Couldn't Forget The Memories Of You Right Now... Be Happy In Whatever You Do..Take Care..

IN THE NIGHT SKY

IN THE NIGHT SKY

by Chhani Fiemarq on Sunday, February 26, 2012 at 10:40pm ·

You said you didnt like me

but why are you coming to me now

Just as i start to forget you, you call me

you flip my insides

Who are you kidding, i wouldve shaken in the past

but now its different, i know everything now

dont play with me, see for yourself

i will be well, even without you

dont talk to me

In the night sky, i will tell you

i will never cry again because of you

i will swear to the sky

i will never see you again

As i cry without anyone knowing

as i walk by myself

suddenly, i got mad at the thought of you

i want to curse at you but

all that will do is hurt my own lips

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Couldn’t deny

Baby I couldn’t deny, I'm still not over you..

It's so hard ..so strange..i doubt this is me..

I don't seem to come around it..

Thinking of you still makes me feel like I am drained..

All my strengths feels like oozing out away..

Every night I dream of you smiling..

Making me wake up longing for you every morning..

Leaving me so lonely all day long..

I close my eyes and I see your face in my eye lid.

I don't blame you if you don't miss me anymore..

I couldn’t even hope you coming back..

But I couldn’t just help myself with my feelings..

I look up the sky, still starry as the same way..

The moon still bright and lovely as has always been...

Still remain at their same place..